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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
>>>

sunday:
cell at easb.
grace brought her guy friend to cell.
back to church for service.
then STREET E !!!
my fellow street e partner is graceteh!
we managed to share to 7 people in spite of all the many rejections.
at first, we were really disheartened.
as we couldnt find any potential people to share with plus it was drizzling so we had to take shelter.
then elissa prayed with us.
and God answered our prayer!
we were the pair that shared to the most people.
yay!:D

monday:
devotion wasnt that bad.
i wasnt that tired as before.
and singspiration was really funny!
the butterfly song and all the actions.
i was doing the actions then erica kept laughing luh.
idiot bambo.
LOL.
so that made me quite awake.
english was boring as usual.
then the ohso interesting Lit!
and i thought mrs kwok was gonna teach us maths today cause she came back alr.
luckily it's only after wednesday.
slept during the last 20mins of maths.

stayed back for the learning styles talk.
so boring luh.
and they held us back.
cabbed to ps with chang,dash,anna&pearl.
ate at kfc.
talked lots of crap.
walked ard then went home.

today:
today was darn cold man!
it's like when i was waiting at the bus stop in the morning, i was freezing.
wore jacket during mass stretch too.
cause the wind was super strong and cold but very nice(:
maths test was baddd.
cause the forgetful jessie, forgot to bring her calculator.
how dumb could i be.
during english, we were all complaining about our school.
like the rules, teachers and all.
then it was LIT!:D
i love lit!
cause joey always asks stupid qns.
and also romeo&juliet is so nice(:
and i kept answering her qns so mswee said, jokingly that i can be her assistant.
hahahah!
then science and prodots.
went straight home aft school.
so guai right.
Lol.

and i'm still sick.
chicken flu is still in me.
and *coughcough*.
but i think i like it.
yes, i'm weird. i know that;D

{ i was alone out there } 5:32 PM


Saturday, January 27, 2007
>>>

thursday:
maths was super funny today.
cause we were all doing our home econs report.
then mrslee, asked us what is 1 tonne.
joey(lame gal): wantonmee!
Alamak!

home econs was quite funny too.
watched this video about nutrition.
and it's like cartoon.
and the other group got to do practical first.
& we're doing it next week. D:
they learned to make sheperd's pie!

common test today.
i'm so gonna faillll D:
cf was quite fun!
we played whacko and this other 'bang' game.
and bevin kept screaming!
then during the 'bang' game,
i was the only sec2 the was still in the game.
but i didnt win. D:

friday:
got scolded by mrs tan twice during her lesson.
cause didnt hand up work on time.
and chang&i were out of class instead of waiting for her to come.
something made me very upset during chapel today.
not gonna say it but i felt that those people were really disrespectful to us, christians and also to God.
i bet some of the other christians felt the same too.

anyway,celebrated kezia's birthday today.
her parents fetched us to raffles city.
6 of us squeezed at the back!
char was sitting on my lap.
& whenever i laughed, i would vibrate and she would move and it made my leg hurt more.
haha.
had sushi buffet at sakae at citylink.
then to marina sq to walk ard.

today:
SICK!!!! D:
didnt go for camy training.
slept throughout the whole afternoon.
and cell was changed to tml.
going to grandparents house now.
to all the january babies,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
ERICA, DAVIDCHOO, KEZIA, MAVIS & AMELIACHUA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!:D

sorry if i missed out anyone.

{ i was alone out there } 6:54 PM


Wednesday, January 24, 2007
>>>

tuesday:
mass stretch.
played the same boringggg games.
eng hr kinda sucked too.
she was scolding us for wasting time on talking.
when she's the one who's wasting our time luh.
then the sec1s had inter-class spelling bee.
and we were cheering for 1e1!
and chang showed her true colours man.
but they lost in the end. boo.
and that math teacher complained to mrstan about us being too noisy and unattentive during class.
although we were noisy, we still did our work luh.
and me,erica&chang are going to have abs from all the laughing.
lol.

we were learning about diffusion during science.
during prodots,everyone was obsessed with the word.
my group name: Youth Fusion
chang's group name: Fussion (charice spelled wrongly)
ahahah!

today:
pe lesson wasnt fun at all lah.
we wanted badminton but did basketball drills instead.
science test was quite okay lah.
i think i should be able to do fairly well.
dots lesson was on time management.
that coach shaun guy is quite funny.
and i must say that eng lesson is super boring.
everyone would feel so sleepy during her lesson.
and the journal thing is so out-of-point!
went to town with chang today.
had lunch and saw nice tanktops.
followed her to her dental appointment at paragon.
so cool luh!
she's getting braces!

ohmy lots of work to do now.
finished ih assignment alr.
need to do the stupid home econs report.
and erica isnt helping luh.
rarr.

{ i was alone out there } 8:59 PM


Sunday, January 21, 2007
>>>

OHMYGOODNESS!!
i totally love a walk to remember soundtrack!
all of the songs are super nice!
and of course the show is nice too luh.
okay i shall post the lyrics of two of the songs that i love the most in the soundtrack.
first one is sung by mandy moore in the show.

Only Hope - Switchfoot

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that i've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and
over and over again

So i lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have
for me over again

So i lay my head back down
And i lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope


Cry - Mandy Moore

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside(deep inside)
Was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before(and you were)
You were always the cold
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside(deep inside)
Was now that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one will find...

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside(forever was in your eyes)
It was now that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
Baby cry
The moment that I saw you cry
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry

Fade out
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you

{ i was alone out there } 11:02 PM


Friday, January 19, 2007
>>> happy day(:

today is a super happy day(:
haha!
cause it friday!
woohoo!!!(:
okay.
chinese lesson is quite ok.
laoshi doesnt seem fierce.
haha.
me&natalie kept talking.
and she's smarter than me in chinese luh!
then ih is super fun!
we were supposed to get into groups.
then do a poster.
yanru, erica, charice, joey, sarah & me!
we kept giggling and all.
cause mrs shum is like lame.
and the poster was damn funny.
and we were singing the nokia advertisment song!

"Last night I had a dream about you,
in this dream i’m dancing right beside you.
And it looked like everyone was having fun,
this kind of feeling i've waited so long."

LOL!
so we kept singing!
then music was great!
watched more segments of a walk to remember.
and i lovelovelove the song only hope!
it's super nice(:

stayed back in school to slack with superfriends.
bballers had training.
we played badminton with a few of the sec1s.
and i think my badminton skills is quite lousy now.
cause i havent been playing for a long time.
and if you didnt know, i was in badminton cca in primary school!(:
then we just sat at the study area floor and kept singing songs!
like those oldold ones.
like westlife, backstreetboys, britney spears etc.
so fun lah!
all those oldold songs are like nice(:

{ i was alone out there } 8:57 PM


Thursday, January 18, 2007
>>>

Superfriends & Chang!!!:D [S]
some of our 'sian' faces! LOL.
sadly shini got cut off.
OMG! look at shini! her face so scary.


NEHZYS ARE THE BEST MAN!!!;D



okay those were pics taken at kap on mon!(:
wednesday:
CCA FAIR!
had fun performing the ccis dance again!
but without the costume lah.obviously.
then we were high duing the cf band performance.
we kept jumping and singing one way!
kept shouting to ask people to join CF!!!!
& basketball also.at their booth.
haha!
and cf is fun ok. not some boring cca.
took 855 home.
talked to a few sec1s in the bus.
they kept talking about guys and all.
aiyo. sec1s arh.
hahahah!
today:
omg!
home econs lesson was damn funny!
we had to act out a short skit on keeping a healthy diet and all.
then dash, the little boy who doesnt like veg.
amanda, the mum who was feeding him.
erica, the maid.
gayya, the barbie doll that can sing.
me&charice, pretended to be acting in a tv show.
and gayya's part was the funniest luh!
she sang: c'mon barbie, let's go barbie, uh uh uh yeah!
LOL.
and i dont like our maths teacher.
she cant teach properly.
she was like using her comp & some slideshow thing on algebra/expansion.
and the graphics were like for pri sch kids.
and the sound effects goes like 'blob blob'.
& keeps repeating the same stuff la.
SO LAME.
and me,charice & insyi had to stand for not doing the maths worksheet.
there's like maths homework everyday also.
argh.

{ i was alone out there } 5:25 PM


Monday, January 15, 2007
>>>

saturday:
first camy training for our batch!
and i was late.
yeah i know, what a great way to start right?
so it was quite fun.
shant blog about the details cause i'm too lazy.
lunch at anchorpoint kfc with jan and the guys.
then followed jan to ikea to buy a clock.
haha yeah.
then went to meet the guys at the arcade at queensway.
and like the arcade is super small and old.
stayed there for a short while then we all went our separate ways.
which also means, me going home alone.
so sad luh. no company at all.

then went to cell at g2.
had regional worship with scream.
cell was quite fun although we were all like quiet.
hahaha!
unlike scream. who screams. a lot.
haha okay.not funny.

sunday:
no cell since we alr had cell on sat.
went for service and i was slightly late.
like ard 10mins.
then went for lunch at vivo with my family.
bought new jeans from topshop!
yay!(:
then rushed back to church to help caleb in his school project thing.
and i was late so i walked to toh's house and it was raining!
rarr.
so we acted and david looked super funny!
so nerdy luh!
hahaha!
and i was supposed to slap toh.
fake slap luh. of course.
haha.
anyway, it was quite fun(:

today:
morning devotion was super boring.
i almost wanted to fall asleep.
then lessons was quite ok still.
and mrs wee is super cool.
her lessons are like interesting and not boring at all.
KAP with Nehzys! & insyi & dharsh.
slacked & ate alot!
when we were supposed to study.
ahahah!
and insyi asked us to explain to her about christianity.
cause she was curious.
so it was like super cool!
cause she's malay.
anyhow, today was fun!
went home with anna!
my Best Bus Buddy!(:
watch a walk to remember just now.
it's super nice!
and i like the songs!(:
okay till here.

{ i was alone out there } 8:53 PM


Friday, January 12, 2007
>>> rainy day D:

i'm eating a banana now.
wah.it's been a long time since i ate one.
mmm. it's nice(:
hahaha!okay that was random.

anyway i'm getting used to sec2 life(:
not bad though.
i feel like a senior now.hahah!
to all those little secones.

lessons today was quite ok lah.
didnt feel sleepy at all!(:
had spelling for chinese.
ih was normal.
and i did my work!
i feel guai. lol!
science wasnt as boring as the other time.
then music lesson!
i love music!:D
we had to do the rescue drama thing.
hahaha!
and watched a small segment of a walk to remember.
and pearl(betty), kept responding to every sentence that mstan said.
hahah! damn funny.
then mstan was so irritated luh.but not angry.
then chapel.
compraise was quite dead.
except the part when we're supposed to say 'oi'!
we were shouting to gayya and pearl!
haha!

went to serene centre mac's with anna.
then geraldine and jiahui came.
so we joined them.
then we went back to school.
played basketball at the hostel in the rain!
was fun.although we were really wet.
especially anna.
and it's so transparent luh!
hahaha!
and she kept wanting to play ABCD.(violent girl)
lol.
and YAY!it's finally friday!(:
camy practice tml morning.

{ i was alone out there } 8:55 PM


Wednesday, January 10, 2007
>>>

tuesday:
was attentive in class today!
didnt feel sleepy or anything.
yay! i'm so proud of myself.
hahaha!

lit lesson is great man!
ROMEO&JULIET.
mrs wee is damn cool luh!
she went to japan for like 10years?
and she has this super cool accent!
i want lah!
so sadd.
she's only gonna be here till 28feb.
cause mrs tay will be back from maternity leave then.

prodots today.
was dismissed super early.
stayed in school for awhile.
then to gayya's house with anna.
watched freaky friday.
snacked a lot!
it's like i ate half of the bag of chips.
ohmy! i'm such a pig lah.

today:
pe lesson-height and weight.
stupid lah!
i shrunk 1cm!
stupid shit lah!rarr.

science lesson was boring luh!
we all felt like sleeping.
then maths.
then dots lesson.(mrstan again).
ohoh!
so mrstan was talking about the topics we'll be learning.
like lifeskills.blah blah.
mrstan: okay.i remembered that one of the topics will be about sex.
pearl: mrstan! can we play?
mrstan: PLAY WHAT?!?!
class: laughs like crazy!LOL.

free period in the library today.
did some work.
then played ABCD, the violent game.
dharsh and insyi hit super hard luh!
and poor sherisa kept getting hit until her hands were RED and it was almost bleeding.

macs at serene with the usuals plus dharsh.
listened to ipod again!
kept singing!
ahahah!
and char kept replaying the chic-a-taa part of me against the music.
HAHAH!

walked back to school.
it was drizzling lah!
rarr.
and the rest kept playing and wetting each other.
(uncivilised people).LOL!
played bball on the wet court.
gross luh!so mudddy and all.
then played ABCD again.
wah! bevin&char got hit the most!
ahaha!
ate TATA again!:D
855 back with anna and joan.

{ i was alone out there } 10:14 PM


Monday, January 08, 2007
>>>

sunday:
woke up slightly earlier.
met zanita at her house's void deck.
OMG!
i didnt know she stays in yishun too!
so cool lah!
and we're only a few blocks apart!
okay so her parents fetched me to church.
thanks again!(:
reached easb at ard 9am.
when my cell's suppose to start at 945.
so i did some of my hw which i brought there.
okay my new cell is great.
although our cell name isnt nice at all.
like SCSM?
so not creative luh.
so we're gonna change it!
mel ong and grace teh are my cm's!
that should be fun.
even if grace is abit weird and high at times, like what toh said.
hahahah!
okay so we're gonna have cell on saturdays!
yay!
i hope scream will join us too!

lunch at ljs with jan and the other guys.
then they left to play lan.
so me and jan walked ard ps.
then we smelled vomit.
eww. it stinks lah!
okay then we decided to go find the guys.
cause we had nothing to do.
walked there.
and I, the one who has better sense of direction found the place.
haha.
okay so we watched them play.
and we took s few photos while waiting too.
wanted to take one where i would be lying on the floor outside the shop, pretending to be dead. cause the place looked like a war just ended and all.
LOL.
but the shopkeeper stopped us.boo.
okay so took mrt home alone as usual.
did the designing of the cf flyer for cca fair.

ohoh! anna msged me and asked if i wanted to join netball.
cause her mum wants her to join a sports cca.
haha.
but we cant play netball well.
and the seniors arent nice.
so i guess we'll see how it goes.

today:
had fever when i woke up in the morning.
so didnt go school today.
but now i'm feeling slightly better(:
and gladys was sick too!
lol.
okay gotta do my hw now.
seeya!(:

{ i was alone out there } 2:47 PM


Saturday, January 06, 2007
>>>

friday:
lessons were the same.
mrs shum doesnt seem that bad anymore.
mrsjeantan's lesson seems quite interesting.
first music lesson today.
msjanetan is damn funny lah.
but sarcastic at times.
and i'm the music rep!
hahahah!
we were like laughing throughout the whole lesson.

stayed back in school to slack with superfriends.
bevin, sherri and joan was there too.
oh and bevin once asked msjanetan how she feels when she's scolding us.
her reply was she felt like laughing cause all eyes looking at her.
but of course, if she did then it'll spoil the whole mood!
hahaha!

andand!
the sec1s looked so toot lah!
wearing the long cca skirts,
almost touching their feet!
they didnt fold it lah!
at least during our year,
we folded cause the seniors told us to!
haha!
oh and also the new pe shirt!
look so horrible lah!
it's dry-fit polo tee.
and the logo is so ugly!
eeee.

today:
damn boring la.
stayed home all day.
want to do hw but too lazy.
i think i'll do it at night la.
ohoh!
i put up a song.
it's nice!
to char: THERE'S GOTTA BE...
haha!

{ i was alone out there } 4:39 PM


Thursday, January 04, 2007
>>>

FIRST SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL!

first day of school was like boring.
all the morning speeches and all.
and admin stuff.
so there wasnt any lessons.

Form Teacher: Ms Tay CN ; okay lah.
Form Tutor: Mrs Jean Tan ; not bad.
English: Ms Chan LY ; heard she's quite strict.
Lit: Mrs Karen Tay ; goodgood.
Chinese: Ms Koh
Maths: Mrs Chris Kwok ; Oh Shit.
Science: Mrs Jean Tan ; Bio&Chem
:Mr Calvin Chua ; Physics
IH: Mrs Brenda Shum ; eee.
Music: Ms Jane Tan ; not bad.
Dot: Mrs Jean Tan ; again.
Home Econs: Ms Ramlah&Ms Yati ; okay lah.
PE: Choo SH ; not sure of the gender.

chinese lesson today.
diff chinese class from anna&char!
BOO.
at least there's some people i know.
like bevin,kezia,arella,natalie,joey.
heard ms koh will pms when stressed.
haha.scary.

ih lesson.
mrs shum is damn lame today lah.
once she stepped into class then punished us.
said that we were late and had to stand.
then talked throughout the whole lesson.
told us how she got married to her husband.
she being lousy at chinese and maths.
saying how important chinese is.
blah blah blah.
we all wanted to sleep lah!
it doesnt even have anything to do with ih.
and i think her voice is funny! lol.

common test.
we havent learned anything yet la.
then got common test.
have to read this article on being polite.
then write our reflections.
so dumb lah.

went to coronation plaza after sch.
golden rooster for lunch.
then it's like there was 6 of us.
and 6 hwa chong guys.
then the shopkeeper was like saying that we can pair up. (in chinese)
like so lame lah!
then we were talking a lot.
found out that mrs shum told the same thing to every class!
HAHAH!

ohoh!
charisse was telling us about mr lim.
her pe teacher.
mrlim: you all shouldnt sit like that ; like trishaw rider way.
class: why?!
mrlim: cause when guys see, they will be MOTIVATED to molest you!
class: HAHAHAHAHA!!!! mr lim, can you dont use that word?!
mrlim: okay, they will be STIMULATED!
class: omg! that's worse!
mrlim: okay, they will be AROUSED. (and he pronuonced it as arosed.)
class: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

oh ya! another thing!
mrlim: you girls must tuck in your pe shirt properly if not can see your nipple.
class: mr lim! it's navel!!
mrlim: yah yah navel! i say too fast thats why sounds like nipple.

he's english is like really not good lah!
HAHAHAHA!!!!
and we kept on laughing once she told us!
okay gonna do my holiday hw now.
i'm gonna TRY to be guai!(:

{ i was alone out there } 5:51 PM

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